Mary Helen Callier

The Procession


We’d walked circles all morning

in our new blue shoes. We

were learning to love


the middle

part best. By now

it was certain


there would not

be an end; nothing loud

and final, destitute,


only the long

archaic creak

of a screen


swinging shut. Love

or whatever love became

our cover for,


the infant we

forgot to feed,

was scrawling


its hand in the tall

grass beside us

and the dusty spot in the back


where we kept the books

sealed with living, sealed

with what we meant to do


but never did would never

stop expanding, growing

hard and luminous


because of all the damage.

Don’t you remember

how the weeks spiraled


how the months dwindled

how that black moth landed

on my lap while I


was sleeping?

It dragged its awkward wings

across my belly


destroying itself

in a trail

of inscrutable dust. What


is the material

substance of grief?

The driftwood piles


on the side of the eddy

monumental and stricken

the driftwood piles


on the side of the eddy

and the hawk on the pole

with the fish in its talons forgets


the finch in the low

bush beside it.

How is it we try


and never learn

how to love

one another?


We are devoured

by what

didn’t happen. The mist


crowns the air.

The hawk vanishes.

Reservoir


At night I stay alone

while my friend goes out

with her new boyfriend.


She loves the way he

pays for everything

but he scares her


when he fucks her.

“It’s not the idea of the thing,”

she tells me, “but the real


life thing itself.”

All the beauty

and the violence


of the world

is in the details.

My mother


resells things we drag up

from the dump,

we have a storage unit full


of shit nobody wants,

we live in a place

nobody has heard of


in a part of the world

nearly everyone

hates. Mars


is that little

red light flashing.

It makes me sad


to think my lover

may never see

a shooting star.


I swim in the cove

where the refuse

builds up. Why


should my body be

any different?

Men come see me


in their flat

bottomed boats.

They catch bass and crappie